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fic_cd_mix, make your own CD and write stories for it.
Author: splendorfalls
Fandom: Harry Potter
1. Evanescence - Bleed (I Must Be Dreaming)
2. A.F.I. - But Home is Nowhere
3. Sarah McLachlan - Wait
4. New Found Glory - Too Good To Be
5. Neko Case - I Wish I Was the Moon Tonight
6. Enya - How Can I Keep From Singing
7. Fiona Apple - Never Is A Promise
8. Sarah McLachlan - Ice
9. Story of the Year - We Don't Care Anymore
10. Snow Patrol - How To Be Dead
11. Gary Jules - Mad World (Donnie Darko ST)
12. Madonna - Isaac
Progress: 1/12
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Meme questions from the PretendWriter community

1. What do you tend to focus on the most? Why do you think you focus on it?
A. The past.
B. The present.
C. The future as you think it will be.
D. The future as you are afraid it will be.

I have a tendency to focus on the future as I am afraid it will be. I am a terrible worrier, most of the time about things that are completely out of my control. I won't say that I don't worry about my own problems, 'cause I do, but I know I take on other people's problems, too.
The strange thing is that I do focus a lot on the past as well, but I don't realize it. It, obviously, has influenced how I look at the future. I really like to know that things are stable, so I can enjoy the time I have without things hanging over my head. That rarely happens, however. Especially right now, when my whole life is in a state of upheaval. College really forces you to re-examine your whole life and make some very tough decisions. I have to call my boss and tell her I'm quitting my job today. Am I worrying about it? Of course! I love my job so much, but I have to focus on school and find that natural rythem I work so well in again. I function best with a routine (which sounds terribly boring, I know).

2. How many active prescriptions do you have at the moment. Of those, how many do you take regularly?

I used to take medication for depression my junior year...that is, until I realized that it had been blacklisted because it caused hightened suicidal thoughts in teens, the exact opposite of what it should have been doing. Needless to say, I stopped taking those immediately. Other than that, I've never taken any other regular prescriptions.

3. What is the most inexpensive, non-valuable thing you tend to collect and hoard? Why do you do it?

Random knick-knacks are my favorite things to collect. Specifically, I have a growing collection of small Bhudda statues (I'm Catholic, by the way ^_^). But I also buy really cheap things from random places that I've been with my friends and family, or things that we've found funny in school that I've kept. For example, I have a small, purple, plastic Koi fish that, while I was in high school, served as the mascot for the French Horn section. Random? Yes, and that's why I love it.
Although I wouldn't consider it a very serious collection, I do own almost every single novel Stephen King has every written. Seriously. I love that man.

4. What is the most supernatural event you have experienced? Did you feel there was a specific reason that it happened to you?

When I was in middle school, I fancied myself a wiccan and used Tarot cards almost daily, as well as a Oujia board. Strangely enough, I predicted some things very accurately. Finally, a friend and I conducted a seance. We'd found the instructions online, of all places, and followed them to the letter. Only, the instructions didn't tell us just what the outcome would be. Believe what you will, but I feel that we contacted something very evil that day. I won't elaborate, but I was so badly frightened that, from then on, I've never touched anything like that again, outside of the Harry Potter novels.

5. How old were you when you first realized that YOU were the adult now?

I'm learning that right now. My father and stepmother really try to control my life and are making it difficult for me to succeed in college. Right now, I should be leaving to take the Tri-Met to school, but I have to stay at my apartment and try to catch up on missed homework because I spent all yesterday working, when I really needed that extra day to study. I have to make my own decisions, based on what works in my life, not theirs. I know that sounds self-absorbed, but I want so badly to just know I can handle things on my own. Take care of my own life without my parents monitoring my every move.
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Quiz stolen from Rick...

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.
Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connect to your soul.
You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.
Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.

You have great vision and can be very insightful.
In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.
Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.
You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

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And....I'm back!

I survived the horrible metal detectors and customs agents on my return from Oahu. It was fun, but I'm very glad to be home again. I'm tired, 'cause of three hour jet lag. Also considering the fact that we landed in Portland at six this morning. Icky.

But the trip was okay. Some drama, as usual with my family, which happened to revolve around me and someone else. That was bad. But the reason for the drama was good. Very good.

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Other than that, I did some other cool stuff, too. I swam with dolphins, for one, at Sea Life Park (ya know, the one from 50 First Dates!). I played a lot of card games and got lots of mosquito bites, 'cause I slept outside on the lanai. We had fun trying to pronounce Hawaiian words. We bartered for touristy stuff. I became a boogie boarding queen and realized how much I love to surf.

Most of all, I missed everybody. Hope you're all doing well.
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Away Notice

Yes, in fact, I am leaving for two weeks. To where, you may be asking yourself?

Hawaii, that's where!

Oh yes, I am very excited. Today's my packing day, so feel free to come by the house if you're inclined to see me before I go. I don't know if I will have internet access while I'm there, so I need phone numbers and stuff.

What do you all want me to bring you back? I get to haggle at the international market, which is always fun, and I need to bring back random things for everyone.

As a side note, I'm bringing back chocolate covered macadamia nuts. For Nick, since I'm missing his birthday. Does that make me pathetic? I hope not! ::grin:: I've got someone on the inside that's going to find out what's going on inside Nick's mind for me (you know who you are, darlin'!)

Also, I have a myspace account now. Just look my name up and you'll find me.

much love to all and every,
--tu me connais

PS: I hate metal detectors in the airport. Seriously. I think I have a phobia, or something.
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Not much to say. But I did have a smashing good time last night. Courtney, Derrick, his friends, and I all went out dancing at FX. It was foam night. I enjoyed it immensely. Lots of cute guys there!

Anywho, I'm working my way backwards to less than pleasant events. I stayed over at my real mom's house Monday night...that was wonderful, too. Things are really changing for my mom, since she's been diagnosed with some strange neuromuscular disease. The doctors have no idea how to handle this, as usual. So she's really weak, losing weight, but is realizing that we can be family again. She's trying really hard to do right by me now, even if it is eighteen years too late. She wants to be a good mom. And I need her to be...

Because I am offically heading back into therapy. I don't really want to discuss it...let's just say it wasn't pretty and I came out of a conversation with my dad and stepmom feeling like a nutcase. Woot.

And, I'm discovering, I might not be shift leader material. It's a depressing thought, to say the least.

But, to make things lighter, I got my hair cut. I'm very happy with it and Courtney says I look hot. That's not a word usually used in my description, but I'm enjoying it, none the less. heehee, I just hope I get Nick's attention with it! ::grin::

And I get to work with Melody on Sunday, I am thinking. But I dunno how her wisdoms are doing, and if she's off the Percocet yet. (Funny stuff, lemme tell ya!)

So, yeah, I'm working all weekend, then I'm leaving for Hawaii early Tuesday morning. Very early. I can't wait to go. I need a little break, where I can just relax. However, a whole bunch of family is going to be there in the same house. Not a bad thing, don't get me wrong, but things tend to get hectic and crazy when we're all together. Then people's toes get stepped on (both literally and figuratively) and things get heated. Oh boy. I just hope I get a moment of carefree relaxation. And parasailing. Can't forget parasailing.

love to all and every,
--tu me connais
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oh yeah

hahaha....I got a four on my AP English test...bitches and hoes, I thought I'd get a two! Heck yes, I am wonderful! ::does a victory dance::
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Howdy, all. I haven't posted in awhile, but I've been busy, ya know. Good things and bad things. And...just things.

Good news, though, (for me at least) is that I'm writing again. Tried something different, something challenging, in my humble opinion. I love it so far.

I watched cartoons with my little sister today...our version of bonding. She talks to me then, at least. I've been spending a lot of time over at my godfamily's house, which is why anyone who's called has been unable to reach me. They're very good people and I love them to pieces.

So, I got a raise at work. And I'm also being considered for a shift leader position, which means another raise on top of that. Sounds absolutely wonderful. But I'm tired...been staying up until at least after midnight for the last two weeks. I've also been taking on a lot more hours and spending a lot more time at the church.

Been thinking about school and stuff...what I want to do with my life, and all that jazz. I have come to the conclusion that I have no idea. I just want to experience life for awhile. Then, once I've got my bearings back, I'll do what I'm meant to do, what will make me happy and make a difference. Yup, I just don't know what that is yet.

So, Courtney's back from Kansas and Melody's back from Mexico. I need to call both of them! Funny thing is, I'm leaving in under eleven days for Hawaii, so I won't get to see people very much before I go.

much love,
--tu me connais
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I have a newfound respect for drag queens...

Wow. Last night was definitely different than I had planned. But fun nonetheless. Here's the rundown:

So, at around ten thirty, Ellany and Addy come in and get ice cream. They make many inside jokes (I wanna like it! heehee) and make me happy. They also talk with Nick as he makes fun of me, which makes me happier! I go help pre-close then, lo and behold, Audrey shows up and gets ice cream, too. Then Jill and Chris show up. So, by the time I get off work, everyone in the lobby leaves with me. I feel so loved!

We went back to my house and chilled for about a half hour, doing absolutely nothing. Addy brings back random refreshments and we chill some more. I dunno how I got this idea in my head, but I really wanted to go to the Escape. So we did.

Oh wow. I love it there. There was a line outside the door that we waited in, seeing many interesting people there. Then we got inside, just in time for the drag queen show. It was wonderful! Some of them were just so beautiful, I couldn't believe it, honestly. Then, after the show, we danced for a long while until we all got so tired we needed to go home. I felt bad, 'cause I have no rhythm, while Addy (oh, excuse me, Anita!) and Ellany both dance very well. But, rhythm or no rhythm, I was sad to go home.

It was too much fun! A big group of people needs to go next time, so everyone can enjoy!

Yeah, so I have church and work today. This is going to be interesting.

love to all and every,
--tu me connais
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